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Have you ever closed the door on an opportunity or a relationship in order to open another door, only to realize you made the wrong choice?

I've been particularly careful about this lately. There have been a lot of things making me unhappy but there are also a number of people and things that make everything better in the wink of an eye. A few of these things have blown up in my face recently, a few are sore, a few are going strong. I want to move on. In some cases, I'm already gone. In others, I'm holding on for dear life. No, this has never happened to me in the past, but I'd like to prevent it. I think that I've done a good job in filtering what is truly worth keeping and now I just need to figure out a way how to hold on tighter so that what is worth the fight doesn't get lost in the dust.

Yes, and I realize it's been forever since I answered one of these things. So... hi.
Current Mood: sicksick
10 June 2010 @ 12:44 pm
How would you describe your sense of humor in six words or less?

Dry as an old humerus.
Current Mood: curiouscurious
09 June 2010 @ 02:51 pm
If you could have one--and only one--wish granted in the next five minutes, what would you wish? How do you think it would improve your life?

I would wish for a sudden urge and drive to break free from everything that is holding me down. I know that I have it burried deep inside of me and every now and then I feel myself getting on the right track. There is always something getting in the way and I would like to abolish those distractions for good. Along with this wish, there would be a race through time. I'm getting so tired of waiting in the dark for amazing things to happen and everytime I try to go out and make things happen, something ties me up. Something less important that the things that I'm chasing. It's like a runner with shoes that can't keep tied. Yup, I'd wish for shoes without laces and one helluva large boost of energy, joy, and maybe a map with warnings of up and coming obstacles. Wouldn't that be nice?
Current Mood: melancholytrapped
08 June 2010 @ 02:49 pm
What's your dream job? Are you qualified for it? If not, would that stop you from taking it if it were offered to you?

I already have my dream job, it's just the profit factor that doesn't exist. My dream job is to do what I love- write, sing, and act all at the same time. I really want to start up a theatre someday but I want to finish college up first.
08 June 2010 @ 01:08 am
Fanfiction: Do you love it or hate it, or are you totally indifferent? Why?

I am very big on fanfiction- but only certain kinds and under certain circumstances.

Fanfiction has been a big part of my life since the fifth grade, before it was a trendy thing to do. Scratch that. I would always pull characters from different stories and mold them together, the same with plots and locations. A "crossover", right? And have been spitting out original characters just as long. Trust me, I am aware of the dreaded Mary Sue and am proud to announce that I probably couldn't write one if I tried. No, that is not an arrogant statement. I would end up driving the computer screen through my face or... exploding before the evil deed could be fully accomplished. No, if anything, I am a character writer. Complex? Oh, are they ever!

Other circumstances Sue aside, I know this sounds harsh/shallow/bitchy/stupid, but I don't do the anime thing. I really don't. I went there in highschool, didn't like the atmosphere and backpacked on back to the litereature and cinema scene and it is there that I have happily read and penned my ficcies for the past ten years. I rarely post and let things build up on my hard drive. I want to put them up but alas, no editor to speak of and as nearly all the rest of my musings, they are done on a whim and are meant to come together when the time is right. Besides, it's more of a writing exercise than anything else!
Current Mood: happycooling down
06 June 2010 @ 09:13 am
What is the most romantic moment of your life so far? What made it so special? Do you think you will ever top it?

The last time that he and I were together as a couple. It was one of those moments when I felt like my life was a living Blockbuster. Let's see here, December 2006. That was my last Christmas in Arizona although it was roughly oh, December 27th, so a little after Christmas. We broke up just before New Years and we both knew that it was coming, we were just two kids who were growing apart and falling apart with every second leading up to the move (among other things). I was getting ready to take him home before going to rehearsal (theatre). It was the coldest winter in the area since I was a kid and the sky was overcast, it had been snowing on and off and we were expected to get a couple of feet that night. He and I were halfway down the driveway when it started again. "I don't think we're ever going to be here again. Regardless of how many times I come back to visit or how much snow falls in the desert from now until the end of time. We won't have this again. This is special." I said, always the poet. The snow began to fall faster and for a minute or two, we stood simply looking at one another, savoring the moment. He lifted one hand and ran his fingers down my cheek, as if to brush off a tear and then another hand, he cradled my head and tilted it back into the snow. I could feel the icy flakes hit my cheeks and forehead and he kissed them all away before he got to my lips. I'm sure that I will eventually be able to top it but if anything, I'd want it to be in a setting like that. That's one of the reasons why I love snow so much.
04 June 2010 @ 05:04 pm
The transition from youth to adulthood can be smooth or incredibly difficult. What is the most important lesson you learned since middle school, and how has it guided you?

When I decided to make the leap and get into performance in college, my dad gave me some wonderful advice. I kind of wish that he would have told me it sooner but he thought that I knew it already. Deep down, I guess that I did but I never really applied it to anything or had a good way of explaining it. He told me that self doubt is the first step toward misery. If I go on thinking that I don't have the talent to make it in the arts, I won't get anywhere. I'll end up having to settle for something that falls short of the thing that I love the most- theatre. Since freshman year, I have taken more risks and accomplished more than I can explain. All while driving on this one thought- I have to stay away from those long hours of regret that clouded my teenage years. I already am the person that I want to be, I already have what it takes and I don't want to spoil it by thinking that I am not worthy of what I have already accomplished/will accomplish.
Current Mood: hungryhungry
04 June 2010 @ 03:46 pm
What is the most disgusting food you have ever eaten? What made it so gross?

Before I begin, I want you to keep in mind that I grew up on the border. Authentic Mexican dishes are practically an object or worship for me. The only things larger than my standards are my cravings. Over time, I've developed new and innovative ways to enjoy them. Want some tips? I'll give you some tips! Archer Farms (yes, the Target brand) has these remarkable microwavable chile cheese hot tamales. Amy's Organic Foods has equally fantastic cheese enchiladas (the sauce is to die for). Macayo's taco sauce with sour cream and shreaded colby jack cheese on a baked potato is one of my favorite snacks. Hell, even jalapeno sauce mixed with sour cream makes a great dip with hot Tostito's (restaurant style, please!) Oh, and before I went veg, I have to admit, the chicken burrito from Taco Bell is better than anything from any Mexican grill in North America. But- this is where, I'm getting at, where there is good there is bad.

There is a resteraunt in the St. Louis area which shall remain nameless. Because they are all pretty bad! But this place... Here's a hint if you're a buddy from class who got this link from me: college town, by Target, across the street from the big house that always has antique cars out on the lawn. They have a chile relleno on their menu and let me tell you, it is like taking a bite out of a filthy, old, sponge that has been rotting away in toilet water for forty years. It is disgusting. I actually spat it back out into my napkin and refused to touch anything else the entire evening. So take a hint from a born and raised kid from Southern Arizona, you're better off buying a three dollar burrito from Taco Bell.

Oh, and don't get me started on the guacamole at that place by the university. Yeah, by the Mc. Donald's and H & R Block. You don't need cilantro and red onions in everything, if anything, it makes it even more untouchable. I was a longtime customer of the most remarkable little place in Arizona, if you're even in the area local.yahoo.com/info-20096085-ricardo-s-mexican-restaurant-hereford GO THERE! Or you know what, plan a trip to the area just for the sake of going there. I think it has four stars? Give me a break, take my word for it. Order a Number Five. Completely vegetarian and completely... the best thing ever. Anyway, cilantro and red onions are unheard of there. Yup. I miss it. ='(
Current Mood: hungryWanting Ricardo's
04 June 2010 @ 03:14 pm
What three qualities do you like most about yourself, and why? What qualities do you like least?

1.) My drive- I can do anything that I set my mind to. When I find myself in a situation where something needs to be done in order to move on, I get right to it and find myself back in motion in no time. I put my best foot forward and try to pour all of my passion into everything that I do- as long as I truly care about the task or the outcome.

1.) My insensitivity- When I know what I want, I really want it. Sometimes, I become persistant and bitter and break away from the flow of things and try to achieve a new flow. I often overlook what's going on around me and the destination becomes more important than the people I meet and friends I made while trying to get there.

2.) My curiosity- I am constantly in pursuit of making meaning. I grow fascinated with things that frighten me or that are hard to understand the first time. This also blends into my knack for creating things and trying to figure out what works and what doesn't. I long to explore new methods and come up with new view points. I like to hear the views of others as well and try to make sense of them.

2.) My impatience- A common flaw for a young girl. I try my hardest not to let it rule out my better half.

3.) My creative roots- My family is very important to me. If it hadn't have been for their raising me in an artistic and open minded setting, I wouldn't be where I am today. We are a random group of people with different methods and stories, and it's sometimes overwhelming to see how nicely we all fit together. I guess when you get down to it, no two links in a chain are ever quite the same.

3.) To finish this all on a comical note, I really don't like that freckle on my middle finger.
Current Mood: calmbetter
04 June 2010 @ 02:35 pm
With so many features available on mobile phones, talking is not always everyone’s first priority. What do you use your phone for the most? What features couldn’t you live without?

My phone has Microsoft Office on it and that is pretty much the only cool feature that it has. I can't surf the internet with it because my bill would skyrocket, but that is what a laptop is for, I suppose. I use Word the most. Being a writer, it is nice to have access to a screen and keyboard without having to wait for my computer to boot up! The majority of my files are incomplete and were pretty much just whims or musings that sprang out of the abyss while I was waiting in line at Starbucks or catching a breather between workouts. But I'll say it before and say it again, it truly is a convenience to have Word standing by for when inspiration strikes.

Another feature that I love (believe it or not) is texting. I'm not one to sit through lectures with my phone hidden behind my bag or to even walk around town, shooting smilies and OMG's to all of my buddies, but texting has gotten me out of a lot of pickles. For example, when I don't have access to my email account, a friend from class will text me and let me know if the lesson has been relocated to another room or if someone only has so much time to rehearse a monologue before work or what have you- it's a real life saver!

Last and certainly not least, I don't have an alarm clock. I've been meaning to buy one just because a bedroom doesn't seem complete without one. However, there is one on my phone. I can make it sound however I want and trust me, making ringtones is crazy fun once you know how to do it. I just go on Window's Movie Maker and create an MP3 file in the sound box. I'm sure there's a simpler way to do it, but it's amazing all the silly little tricks you can find out for yourself just by fiddling around.
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